Wednesday, June 23, 2010

A new perspective on "The Call"...

The internet has definitely been an awesome tool that God has used in my life! First and foremost, He used it to help me meet my Prince Charming! Indeed! Amen! Secondly, He has used it to connect me to people all over the United States with hearts for adoption and His precious children... even connecting us with a wonderful new family living just down the street that, honestly, we may never have met otherwise! What a sweet answer to prayer!

Today our adoption Yahoo! group was buzzing with activity! Travel dates being assigned, people passing court, and referrals! There was so much wonderful joy being shared. But the green bug of envy caught me AGAIN! Where was "our call"? "Oh my, we've been skipped over!" (Simply due to the fact that God has called all of our families to different genders/age ranges/medical conditions, etc.) "But... STILL!" (can you hear the sad whining going on.... oh dear...)

Then I recalled a sweet conversation we had with our new friends... and was reminded that we said "yes" to His calling... openly and with all our hearts... yet, nothing is absolute. His plans are His plans. His timing is His timing. I suddenly realized, the call we are waiting for is HIS!

I have found such relief in that! Yes, oh, yes, I'm still excited to hear from our awesome social worker... but now, when she calls... in reality it is God using her as an instrument of His voice and plan for our family! Sweet!

So, green bug of envy... you aren't welcome anymore! Let the joyful waiting continue...

And in the meantime.. Thank you God for this incredibly beautiful sunshine, for the amazing family you've given me, for an incredible week of Kidfest VBS (and the energy to withstand monitoring 100 or so preschoolers during recreation time!), for awesome giggle times with my kids and for new friends who love You and gently remind me of Your love!... I am so very blessed indeed!

Shani with one of our new friends... sweet Eliza!

4 comments:

  1. (actually Kelly) :)
    I read this and thought of you.

    ”‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.’” (Jeremiah 29:11-13, NIV)

    God disciplines his people for their good. He wants to bless and will inflict pain to provoke repentance. He wants to turn our face toward his goodness.

    * We must be convinced of God’s plan. We think of the present, but the Lord sees our future. We complain that he does not give us what we think best. We doubt his goodness and love. His plan always focuses our benefit and we must be convicted that God constantly works for our peace.

    Love you guys, and waiting anxiously for His call, as well!
    Kell

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  2. Shana-
    I can't tell you how hard it was to announce our news without all of my friends having the same news at the same time. I know God has chosen your child for you just like he did for us and you will feel so happy that He maybe gave you a little extra time. Our babe is a little older than we expected, but we know she is the child He chose for us. Your babe will be oh-so-perfect!!! And I'm praying-praying for you!

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  3. Love it..praying for you as you await THE CALL! I can't wait to hear the news but also trust you will keep your great perspective in the waiting...

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